Thoughts Upon a Window

"There's a mark above your eye,

You got it in July

You're fighting for your sister's reputation

You remember people's names

Valentines are lame

So you bring me flowers just for no occasion

Correct me if I'm wrong,

You're fragile and you're strong

a beautiful and perfect combination

I wanna know you!

I wanna go there, where you go

I wanna find out what you know

And maybe someday down the road,

I'll sit back and say to my self,

'yeah I thought so'"

so. i am super annoyed. i think some people need to reevaluate the meaning of "best friend". i dont even think i feel like going into detail about all of this. but honestly you thinking so highly of yourself and thinking i should be so upset when YOU decide to walk out of MY life does not make it actually happen. it just makes it easier to not care.

being a best friend means being selfless and caring about being there for the other person, not soley worrying about how this person is contributing to you, what they are doing for you. that is just being selfish...and how does that make sense.

i used to think that because i had been friends w someone for a really long time that that made them a better friend than the people i had met more recently. i was wrong. best friends are about being there when something goes wrong. not being judgemental and rude and trying to change the person, but accepting how they are and helping them. best friends are about forgiveness, because no one is perfect. best friends are about hoping for the others happiness and nothing less, not so much about worrying about what is the right thing and the wrong thing. because regardless you are still there for the person. best friends are about the good times, having fun and laughing. talking about things that dont matter.

it has taken me a long time, but i know now more than ever what a best friend is. and i will not be told anymore that i am not a good best friend anymore. i am who i am and my "best friend" of ALL people should accept that.

on another note; i just started listening to my sisters boyfriends music for the first time and i really like it. check pete jacobs out at myspace.com/englishstandard. his music is really good!

i came up w another fragrence idea i realllly liked the other day. i really need to get on working on that. maybe i will do it right now. why not? ricky is just playing his xbox like he has been since he got back! sooo fun to watch! haha.

well that is alllll for right now.